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Bill, the beta who has silently plotted my demise for over two years, has finally left us for the big fishbowl in the sky.He will be remembered for his eerie way of watching people as they crossed the room, and the fidgety way he would swim around his little bowl.Bill is survived by his older sister Gambit the cat, and his little sister Cosmic Creeper, also a cat. After a short investigation, both cats were cleared of any involvement, and Bill's death has been ruled a suicide. Mourners please omit flowers, but feel free to make donations in Bill's name to your local ASPCA.
1. Inspiration: Political "Oopsies." (Pick one, there are plenty to go around!)
The thought: The words are "I'm sorry." Why can't politicians learn them? I had a director rant at me once to the tune of- "You're the stage manager and that makes it your fault!" Which is true, if something goes way wrong on/off stage, it generally means the guys in the booth missed something. My respect for this administration (not that there's any to begin with) would go through the roof if someone would just say, "My guy goofed, but he was mine, and now I'm going to fix it." Hell, I'll even take "My guy MAY have goofed."
2. Inspiration: Reality TV
The thought: Why am I watching this? Yup, that about sums it up.
3. I: Work
T.T.: Why am I watching reality TV when I have this? It's like The Apprentice and Survivor are running Extreme Makeover: The Home Edition, only everyone's missing their deadlines, no one gets immunity, and the houses aren't done on time!
4. I: Cats
T.T.: I need a nap.
5. I: "Outside of a dog, a book is man's best friend. Inside of a dog it's too dark to read." -Groucho Marx (I think.)
T.T.: He-he-he. This gets me every time I think of it.
I'm a little maudalin tonight. Of course, I've been a little maudalin a lot lately. Part of it was being sick, (I'm feeling much better-thanks) and part of it is work related, (the new lady started, she seems OK so far.), but a large part of it is a case of the blahs."Up" is not my natural state- contrary to any evidence otherwise. My normal default setting is best described as a neutral/withdrawn, buried somewhere in the depths of my mind where I wander until I get bumped up into the external realm. My mind doesn't wander so much as it sinks. This usually isn't an issue, because I'll come out and play fairly readily. But lately.... I'm finding it really hard to really "get into" anything. I've had passing interests, flashes of focus that basically fall into the "bright and shiny" category. Blink-and-you-missed-it, but it was cool for awhile type things. Add to that a case of the "I wants" and I'm having some very bitter thoughts. What makes it worse is that I'm very aware of my blahs, and I have a really hard time passing them sometimes. I kinda hunker down inside my mind, feel bad that I'm just letting things slide, and wait...I think I really just need that vacation I have coming up. Everyone's been asking me if I'm going to visit my folks, and look at me kinda odd when I say I'm just staying in. I think my friends get that I just want to be alone, but I tell people at work and they think I'm a bad child, not going to see ma and pa. I just want to ignore the world and deny my own existence for awhile. Can it be any simpler?P.S. I'm turning off the comment option on this post (I think) so please don't go to other entries to tell me, well, whatever you might tell me to make me feel better. It is just a case of the blahs, and it will go away. This is just a statement of this weeks issues. Seriously, hugs and kisses to all, I will be fine.
For as so much as eagles fly,
and waves beat across the sand,
I see the sky above me,
and the devil takes my hand.
Across all time
and thru all space,
I've wandered 'cross this land.
And never 'til my dying day,
will I ever understand.
I see the pain, I taste the joy,
It's distant, shut away.
It's not me, but I want it too,
more than I can say.
The devil smiled, and the angels danced.
The faries played a hollow tune.
And still I wander, hand-in-hand,
And I wonder, and I wait.
Some answers come too soon.
Before you leave, my silent friends,
close your eyes, open your soul.
Reach out you hand, and before you know,
the devil you find is your own.
...to a DVD player near you. This kooky, family movie is a feel good hit. Fun for everyone. See it today!!http://waxy.org/random/video/shining_redux.movThere's more where this came from, too- Check out www.ps260.com- their site (enter the homeroom, go to the blog tab) has links to the eerie and terrifying West Side Virus as well.
